Me? Where do I start? It’s hard to tell about myself. On the surface, I guess people would say I am funny with a dry sense of humor. Humor is the weapon I use to make life bearable. I will drop everything to help those I love. I am a dreamer. Dogs and children have my heart. I love to learn and grow and I am never static. I suffer from depression. I look for the good in others, but often can’t find it in me. I am creative and love to paint and take pictures. I would spend every day of my life making jewelry, taking photos, painting, and drawing if I could. I stay too busy at times so I don’t think about the huge issues in my life. I am a complicated woman. I often want to run away and start a new life. I believe music makes my life complete, and listen to Pandora Radio as much as I can. I am a spiritual person but I don’t believe in organized religion. I love to party and I enjoy being with fun people. I have two dogs I love more than I love most humans because they KNOW me (really know me) and still accept and adore me. I listen to the ever-changing soundtrack of my life. I love to travel and often become depressed when I must return home. I adore riding on the back of a motorcycle up a winding mountain road at dangerous speeds. I am a survivor of childhood sexual and emotional abuse, as well as a gang rape later in life. As a teen, I hid from my inner demons by using drugs, alcohol, and sex. It didn’t work. I usually feel unlovable, but don’t really know why. I think most therapy sucks, but if it works for you, go for it. I have a very long bucket list, but I actually work on mine and check things off. One day, I will be a hippie woman living in a tiny cabin on the side of a mountain painting and dancing (I will be a legend among local kids) and living off the land.
My name is Rainey and that’s my story. What’s yours?