Rainey Daze and Crazy Nights

Poetry, Paintings, and Ponderings: Through My Eyes

Peaceful Morning Thoughts October 26, 2013

It’s quiet here. All I hear is the steady hum of the small heater I have plugged in to combat the morning chill. The entire world, it seems, is still asleep. The birds are still in their nests awaiting the morning light. Not even the distant crow of the rooster can be heard. Even the sun is still in slumber. This quiet moment, for it is just a moment, is one of my favorite times of the day.

I am up early simply to have this moment. I usually try to sleep in on Saturday to catch up on the rest I miss during the busy week. Today having this peaceful time to myself is more important, and much more needed, than extra sleep. I need to “re-center” myself on the important things in life and focus on me for a change. My life gets so out-of-control crazy at times that I literally have to step back, take a breathe, and do some self-reflection.

What is most important to me at this time in my life? Where do I need to focus to have personal growth where I need it? How can I lessen the huge amount of stress I carry on my shoulders? What perceptions do I need to work on? What new short-term and long-term goals do I have? What makes me really happy? What things, ideas, or people do I need to let go from my life to increase my self-worth and happiness?

These are the questions I ask myself. Sometimes when my world is crumbling around me I lose sight of the big picture; my internal compass goes haywire and my sense of purpose is lost. It takes a bit of quiet self-reflection to remind me of who I am. “Perception is reality.” I live by that quote. Sometimes I only need to adjust my perception to become happier. I cannot change the actions, thoughts, or beliefs of those around me, but I can change my perception by examining myself and others.

Hubs is working, J is sleeping. The dogs are still deep in slumber, snuggled against my legs. My fingers are itching to hold a paintbrush. I wonder…what will I create?


My Perception March 4, 2013

We all live in our own individual realities.  What we think, what we feel, what we perceive: that is truth. It doesn’t matter if it really is true; if we believe it, it is true in our own small worlds.

I keep coming back to this thought: “Perception is reality.”  Can we change our own reality by changing our perception? Can we create the world we want, the world we need, by changing how we view things around us?

It sounds too simple, but I think there is some truth there. Take this situation, for example. A coworker was very stressed out last week. When I approached her with advice on some changes she needed to make at work (part of my job is to give feedback), she bit my head off and tried to make my life miserable. I allowed her to get under my skin. I felt attacked and began to doubt the advice I had given. Suddenly I felt like “they” were all against me, and I felt very uncomfortable. My day was horrible. The next day, I made a decision to change my perception. I chose to remember she had a bad week and it wasn’t about me at all. I chose to ignore her verbal barbs and continue to do my job. Guess what? My day was not only better, but it was one of the best days I’ve had lately. What changed? She didn’t; she still went out of her way to be spiteful; she tried to get people on her side. The only thing that changed was my attitude. My perception of the situation.

Perception is reality. To improve my reality, I must improve my perception.



Perception January 1, 2013

Note to self…

Perception is reality.

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