Rainey Daze and Crazy Nights

Poetry, Paintings, and Ponderings: Through My Eyes

River Trail Thoughts April 29, 2012

The birds were not cooperating today, so I could not get any good pictures of them. Instead, I decided to go for a walk on a local trail. This walk inspired a lot of thinking about life.

The gravel trail meanders through a beautiful forest. The bushes, ferns, and trees are all wearing their new spring finery. Sprinkled sunlight throughout the woods creates a lovely pattern of light and shadows. When I am in this setting, all seems right in my world. It makes me wonder: do you think all the modern conveniences have actually harmed us as humans? I have so many “things”, and because of this I work long hours and spend most of my time on upkeep of said things. What if life were more simple? What if I had much less, and had time to do much more? This walk in the woods really got me thinking about life.

Imagine having a small cabin in a forest like this one. Would the peace and quiet be a constant inspiration to my spirit, or would loneliness drive me insane? I would be willing to give up a lot for a quiet life.

I am in awe of this crooked tree because to me, it told a story. I found it growing in a thick patch of woods. The base of the trunk is large and sturdy, but cast in shadows of the surrounding trees. As it was growing, this tree needed sunlight. Somehow, over the many years of its life, this tree found a way to reach for the sun. It grew in a way that was best for it, not caring about how it looked or what anyone else thought. This tree did what it needed to do. You can learn a lot from a tree.

Here is a peek of the river. Like most things in life, the “getting there” was more fun than the “arriving”. However, I do enjoy spending time near the water.

I really enjoyed my walk today and it helped to shake some of the “blues” I felt when I woke  up. It also made me think about my life, and how I could change some things. I still struggle with the idea of my actions making others unhappy, but I see now that my happiness is important, too. Today I went for a walk because it made me happy. I wonder what I might do tomorrow?

 

Today

I am feeling a little blue today. Nothing big; just a heaviness in my heart. I was busy all day yesterday helping my daughter, so I have much to do today, and yet I feel like doing nothing. Dirty clothes need washing; the floors need swept, mopped, and vacuumed; clutter has somehow crawled out of the woodwork and created disarray; and dust (no, not fairy dust, the yucky kind)  dulls the surfaces. When I am down ( not full-blown I can’t get up depressed, just the melancholy kind) I feel overwhelmed by what needs completed. Here is the gift I give myself today: I give me permission to take it easy. I will complete needed tasks today, but not everything. That’s okay. I love to make lists, so I will create a list and check off tasks as I complete them. I will also leave time for me. I can relax, work on art, or take photographs. Today, I will be kind to me.

As I sit  here writing this, I can hear the birds chirping outside. Birds have such a lovely, happy sound. Perhaps I will take my camera outside for a bit. The morning air is still cool and the trees are all wearing their beautiful spring leaves. The skies are overcast, but a hint of a sunny day is there. Yes, this is a moment I need to capture.