Rainey Daze and Crazy Nights

Poetry, Paintings, and Ponderings: Through My Eyes

doppelgänger April 1, 2012

for such a long while i have deceived you

i’m not really me anymore

the doppelgänger me is sleepwalking through my days

faking a smile, completing my tasks with semi-efficiently

while i remain curled protectively around my heart

no one is the wiser and it’s been better this way

but now…

the black tide is rising and i’m growing too tired to swim

the doppelgänger me is beginning to crack

the painted smile is fading

it’s getting too hard

alice is falling through the glass

you will soon know that i am no more

and that leaves me

with nothing.


7 Responses to “doppelgänger”

  1. Tom Says:

    What a pitty that the German word “Doppelgänger” is used in a such sad context.

  2. Such truth and such sorrow Rainey. I know the feeling very well.

    But there is another option dear friend. Today is a new day and you can change it all. Decide today, this very moment that this is no longer how you want to live your life. It will not be easy – the things that are the most important never are. But it will be worth it. This I promise you!

    • rainey Says:

      Thank you for your support and feedback. Some days are worse than others, but lately the good days have been few and far between. I do know that better days are coming; that is what keeps me hanging on. 🙂

  3. Pamanner Says:

    Powerful–the mask.

  4. emma Says:

    Wow. This is exactly how I feel. Thanks for putting it into such simple, beautiful words. I want to share it on my blog, hope that’s ok. Thanks, again.

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