Rainey Daze and Crazy Nights

Poetry, Paintings, and Ponderings: Through My Eyes

Life March 23, 2014

Filed under: about me,all,Poems,poetry — rainey46 @ 11:13 am
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Life.

live, laugh, enjoy

love, trust, respect

lose, cry, sorrow

hurt, broken, lonely

grow, remember, live

Life.

 

 

 

 

I’m Drowning in My Own Blood March 19, 2014

Filed under: about me,all,Poems,poetry — rainey46 @ 5:55 pm
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I’m drowning in my own blood~

it pulses through my veins

boiling, bubbling, tumbling

from fingertip to toes.

 

I’m drowning in my own blood~

it covers me

it fills my greedy lungs and steals

my final breath.

 

I’m drowning in my own blood~

my eyes wide open

I watch until the very end

my last view is crimson.

 

I’m drowning in my own blood.

 

 

 

 

Crazy March 16, 2014

Filed under: about me,all,humor,life,miscellaneous,quotes,random,relationships — rainey46 @ 6:45 am
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“A person can only drive you crazy if you give them the keys.” Step away from my keys!

 

If I Let You In, Would You Accept Me? March 2, 2014

Filed under: about me,all,anxiety,journal,musings,personal,picture,quotes — rainey46 @ 1:11 pm
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This is so true. I wish I felt comfortable enough with someone, ANYONE, to let them see into my heart. I am very laid back and tolerate of others’ differences and ‘uniqueness’ because that is how I wish people were with me.

 

Oh, Why Not Laugh? February 26, 2014

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Laughter Cures the Blues February 22, 2014

Filed under: all,humor,just shits and giggles — rainey46 @ 8:02 am
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Life Update

The good news: mentally, I’m feeling better. The dark cloud didn’t send me too far down the slippery slope, and I am feeling normal again. (What is normal, by the way? I’m not sure, but it is somewhere between “Oh my God, I can’t bear to get out of bed and face the world” and “WOW! THIS-IS-THE-GREATEST-DAY-EVER-I-CAN-DO-ANYTHING!”)

The bad news: many bad things happening around me to people I know and love. I will not dwell on it (as that causes the slippery slope to loom over me) but one family member died yesterday and another got a diagnosis of stage 4 lung cancer (non-smoker). So much sadness around me that I actually feel physical pain.

Work right now is a bitch. No other way to say it. I still love my job, but I feel so stretched thin. I am needed by so many people to do so many things. Most schools have two people who do my job, but I am the only one at my school due to the budget. I usually don’t mind, but at times like this, when so much has to be completed in a short period, it is very hard on me. I will get through it, I just feel like I am not doing my best because I am doing too much.

It’s going to be a beautiful day here today, so I will sit outside in the sun and let it warm my soul. That makes everything more bearable.

 

 
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